Tigabelas.

It's 31st December.

Can't believe 2013 is going to be over by this night. Time flies so fast!

Goodbye 2013 and hello 2014.

Wonder how next year is going to turn out? Hopefully it's just fine.

There's a lot of things that I've learned through out the years before. 2013 brings so many expression for me. I've learn so many things about friendship and also about relationship. I've learned that it takes time to learn something new. I've learned how to get hurt, how to forgive and forget, how to being such a patient person, how to be brave and confident towards myself to achieve what's best for me, can't trust people easily, and also I'm learning how to appreciate what I have before it becomes what I had. The journey of my soul has come to end, and it's the time to start something new. The new me. And one more thing, I've learned that running away from problems won't solve anything. You can forget about it, but it still doesn't fix anything.

I wish to write about so many things.

I'm being heartless lately, I have no idea for this thing but who knows, feelings can't be predicted.


RESOLUTIONS FOR 2013.

• Stop living bout the past and forget all about it.
• Learn the value of true friendship.
• Be a responsible daughter, a matured sister, and a loyal friend.
• Be more confident and brave going through all the hardships and troublesome.
• Earn money by myself and stop depending more on others.
• Have the pretty old days with whom I used to call my best friend.
• Meet people that I really really really want to meet like forever.
• Be more thankful with all the things that I always had.
• Stop giving up easily and learn to accept fate with an open mind.

Thank you everyone for all the awesome memories and good times. Thank you so much for everything. 2013 is going to end in less than 24 hours. 2014's probably going to be a tough year as I have to deal with few things. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan.

Duabelas.

Baru sekarang aku tahu perbezaan "best friend" dengan "best" friend. Alhamdulillah, no matter how bad people talk about me, hate me and accused me but I still have those awesome friends yang selalu ada ketika senang dan susah, yang lebih faham setiap inci tingkah laku, menerima setiap perlakuan, kekurangan, baik buruk, dan yang paling penting merekalah yang selalu datang untuk kutip setiap kepingan semangat aku yang jatuh berkecai. Aku tak pernah harapkan mereka ada membantu aku setiap kali aku ditimpa ujian tapi Tuhan itu maha adil, Dia titipkan mereka untuk aku dan sekarang Allah buka mata aku untuk melihat dan menilai yang mana satu sebenarnya "kawan" yang mana satu sebenarnya "lawan".

Terima Kasih Ya Allah.

Sebelas.

Always remember you are unique and you are important. There is no one else in the world quite like you. You are special. There never has been and there never will be anyone like you again.

Don’t let people take away your respect for yourself. No matter what they say or do remember that you are very important and a worthwhile person, and always retain respect for yourself. They cannot take away your self respect and dignity, for you control what you think of yourself and no one else.

You have your own special qualities and talents, and though you may not have the talents and gifts that someone else has, you have your own talents and gifts that others do not have. No one else can be you. Only you can be you. Try to be the best you possible.

Remember also that you are important to other people. You cannot help but touch the lives of other people as you go through life. There are many people who need your love and support, and who look up to you, and want to emulate you. People you may not even be aware of need you, and watch your life, and if you give up and fail yourself, you are failing them and letting them down too.

And you are important in the eyes of God.

— via Tumblr.

Sepuluh.

Whenever a person is ignoring me, what they’re actually doing is making a conscious choice to communicate that I’m not important to them... it is also giving me an idea to care less.

If you ignore me, I will ignore you. If you don’t start the conversation, we won’t talk. If you don’t put in the effort, why should I?

I’m tired of people who are like hot and then cold, one day they will talk to you like there is no tomorrow and make you feel important and probably make you fall for them, and then one day it is like you don’t even exist in their life... they ignore you like they are having an amnesia or something... it’s like they are no where to be found, it’s like they’re playing mind games... people are so confusing!

— via Tumblr.

Sembilan.

Everything happens for a reason. People will push you around and take advantage of you so you eventually give up on everyone and trust nobody but yourself. Life isn't easy, but we all know that. These struggles that most of us all face is common throughout the world and we all got to learn that this only makes an individual stronger in the heart and mind. We have to accept that those nights of feeling lonely and stressed are nothing but ways to help push you into becoming a much better person. And that's what bids us a happy and wonderful life in the long run.

— via Tumblr.

Lapan.

It's okay to cry, it's okay to be sad about it. It's okay to miss him, and it's okay to wish you did something differently. But never blame yourself for how things turned out. Never tell yourself you can't do better, and never tell yourself this is end of the road. Fate has a time and place for all of us and nothing you can do or say will change that.

Sure, it's okay to fall, but it's never okay to stay down.

— via Tumblr.

Tujuh.

Some people changed right?

For now on, I promise to myself for not trusting people so much except my family. Not all people will helped you sincerely and they might want something for returned. Life has taught me to be careful, to be more concern about what happened around me, how to bring myself and throw away all those people who trying to let me down, fuck all words that came from them and most important thing is don't even care about someone who don't deserve to be there in my life.

So many thing has happened lately. I can never imagine how strong I am. I'm facing all the problems by myself. I do realize that sometimes everything we had are not always be there for a longer time. People came and go. People make mistakes so do I. So, just deal with it. Most important thing is I learn something from my mistakes. Yes, learn. Yeah, absolutely.

Enam.

Sometimes all I want to do is forget the world.

Forget my past.
Forget the memories.
Forget what I am going to do next.


And just focus on being happy and not worrying about anything else.

Lima.

Too many words that I want to express. Too many that are playing in my mind right now. All kind of feelings in the heart that makes me nervous and too anxious of what will happen next in future. But for now I only have one word, HAPPY!

Empat.

Allah knows that you are feeling lonely.
Allah knows that you are worried about the future.
Allah knows that you are struggling with your studies.
Allah knows that your family is giving you a hard time.
Allah knows that your friends are upsetting you.
Allah knows of your monetary problems.
Allah knows everything that you are going through.
And Allah knows the answer to all of your problems.
Therefore pray hard and strengthen your Iman for Allah is the best Helper.

— via Tumblr.

Tiga.

Terasa ingin menjerit,
Memberitahu pada semua,
Betapa aku sudah terlalu perit,
Hidup dalam muslihat dunia.

Terasa ingin melaung sekuatnya,
Biar dunia tahu apa yang aku rasa,
Betapa aku ingin keluar dari kesempitan yang melanda,
Agar bisa aku kecapi tenang di jiwa.

Terasa ingin memberitahu semua,
Betapa letih sudah aku dengan dunia,
Tetapi aku tahu cukuplah dengan ada Dia,
Untuk aku kongsi segala.

Ingin aku cerita pada semua,
Bahawa aku telah hampir berputus asa,
Betapa kesibukan dunia telah memerangkap jiwa,
Tetapi di sebalik semua,
Masih ada ketenangan yang aku dapatkan dari Dia,
Untuk aku terus bangun dari kecewa.

— via Tumblr.

Dua.

I miss writing. I miss this place. Yes, blog the only place yang aku rasa selesa nak menulis, mengamuk, maki hamun, ketawa, menangis and all those kind of emotions.

I'm sorry I left you for too long.

Seriously, dah tak ada mood nak menulis seperti dulu lagi.


*sigh

Satu.

Assalamualaikum.

Blog baru lagi.

Kbye.